Even if…

But God, when You choose

To leave mountains unmovable

Oh give me the strength to be able to sing

It is well with my soul- Even If by Mercy Me

We let our Harmony go today after four days of parvo treatment with no improvement and newly developing sepsis.

As I shared earlier this month, Harmony was part of our dream to help others create a life they love. She was a beautiful curly puppy with a kind heart, who was responding remarkably to training. We loved her immediately and others did too. She even had over 250 followers, after only three days on Instagram.

So, when the parvo test came back positive, I immediately began to pray. I called on every person I knew who would carry a prayer for a puppy and know that she was so much more to us than just a pet.

Harmony fought for four and half days with the best care available. Although this was not in our budget, we knew we had to try and give her a chance to live. Selfishly, I was also not ready to let her go.

With fists clenched, I begged God to let us keep her.

Harmony was part of our dream and sometimes things don’t work out with dreams. This is one of those times. Honestly, it is easy to get angry and to ask why when that which brings us joy is senselessly ripped away.

Still, I know that God is good. I know that He is here with us through it all, and He will be here tomorrow too. Even if, the answer is no or not right now, I trust that Lord knows our pain and is using it for something we can’t see today.

Just moments before the call about Harmony’s decline, I found out my professional state license for counseling had been issued. This was a long and difficult process that was another obstacle for our practice. This victory did not fix the pain I experienced regarding Harmony, but it did help me see that I’m still on the right path.

Eyes on God.

I’m grateful. Even today, a pretty dark day, with sad kids, and abandoned chew toys, I’m grateful. We had enough time to love Harmony so well, that we are deeply heartbroken to have lost her. Love that big is worth having, even if, only for a little while.

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