Running Lessons- Guilt

My mother says, “Guilt is a useless emotion.”

I am not sure about the psychological truth to this statement- yet. I do know that guilt tends to surround my efforts in health and fitness. You know the shoulds and oughts that linger the minute you’ve eaten off plan or rested on a non-rest day?

Maybe it’s just me.

Yesterday, I had a three mile run scheduled, but I also had some unscheduled insomnia the night before. Sleeplessness shows up from time to time and does it’s best to wreck my plans for productivity. I’ve learned many tricks that help: yoga, essential oils, good nutrition, and supplements. Still, I have off days of little to no sleep.

Progress not perfection.

Instead of a run, I slept late. Then, I took my son to the aquarium, where we met our aunt, uncle, and cousins. We ate lunch at the cafe instead of at home as planned and ended with ice cream.

It’s been some time since we’ve seen this part of our family and it was fun to catch up while exploring. I absolutely loved this day and the time spent with my sweet boy and our family.

It was a treat.

Guilt lingered in the background to be sure it wasn’t left out, and pestered this morning as the sun came up.

And today, I’m back on schedule and headed out for a run. I intend to eat better too- again.

I wonder if guilt is what gets me back on track? I also wonder if grace could be a better more kind and edifying encourager?

Off to pound that out. Wishing you a day filled with guilt-free joy!

My why…

“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” Psalm‬ ‭139:14‬ ‭NIV‬‬

I’ve been thinking a bit about my journey to healthier living that began in 2011 and my decision to build a Young Living business in 2013.

In 2008, I had my youngest son. I had anxiety and depression that shut me down most days. It was relentless and the only thing worse was the insomnia and the feeling that I was trapped in my existence.

When I looked in the mirror, I no longer saw myself or anyone I wanted to be. It was long and difficult.

My health was the next to crumble. Weight gain, adrenal fatigue, body aches, and a vague diagnosis with no fix. At that point. I let doctors, who did not know, define what I could and could not do.

But God…

In 2010, we moved to DFW. 600 miles from family, to new jobs, new stress, new bills and the same sickness. That year, Tom ended up in the hospital twice with random unexpected illnesses. Needless to say, we were tired, our marriage was rocky, our finances a mess.

In 2011, in a desperate attempt for relief from my physical and emotional hurts, I found help at the hands of a Chinese Medicine Doctor. I learned about toxins and how eating clean and living clean can heal the body.

I learned to move (whether painful or not). Most importantly, I realized that with every bit of effort in the right direction, small changes were countering the faulty beliefs I had foolishly accepted about myself.

Fast forward a few months, I learned from my childhood friend that Young Living had great products to support my new and evolving toxic-free lifestyle. Essential Oils were the missing link and I began to feel healthier than I ever had.

In 2013, I became a certified yoga instructor, in 2015, I ran my first half marathon with my husband. In that half training, I learned to follow him/Him. Our marriage was healed.

In 2015, I went to an Oola Weekend Conference and wrote down wants, why’s, goals, and how’s, regarding these areas of life Faith, Family, Friends, Fun, Fitness, Finances, and Field (work). With a community of people who were ready to take living to the next level, I developed a plan.

We are now Gold distributors with Young Living. We have traveled, paid off debt, sent our children on adventures, and I was able to leave my job in public education in 2017 and go to school full-time this year (dream come true), all because of the decision to intentionally share wellness with others.

“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” ‭‭Psalm‬ ‭139:14‬ ‭

My dreams are to continue to learn and grow in understanding about how to empower myself and others to create a life they love! Through my work as a life coach and a therapist-in-training, I hope to reach others who are ready to live better.

We are incredibly grateful for every bit of this journey, even the painful ones.

I share my story not because it’s over, or because I live a perfectly healthy life today, but to say we are not limited to what we think we are or are not.

Never settle for anything you can choose out of your life. Find Joy in that which is not a choice and the journey you will experience along the way!